So, I've been a little "under the weather" for the past couple of days. I would rather chew on nails than suffer thru these UTIs. :( I've been resting and am "on the mend" thanks to a couple of friends that hooked me up with some antibiotics. ;) Oh...yeah...if any doctors are reading this, I know, I know...but these meds should be over the counter anyway, don't ya think? Soooo, taking someone else's meds is not really the right way to handle it but it's working! :)
I am happy and feel grateful that I have friends...well, friends that have always been there but just waiting for me to let them in. Today, I have 36 reasons to celebrate! I have some obstacles to handle in order to put myself in an environment in which I feel safe, independent, calm, and happy. I am always intrigued with people...hence the degrees in Psychology and Counseling. I wish I would treat myself as well as I enjoy trying to help others...and will get there. People all have their own little quirks and perceive the world around them in their own way. They know what they know and have become the person they are today based on their own experiences in life. It would be boring if everyone was the same. It's what keeps life interesting! However, I also find myself being more tolerant than I should with others in certain situations. I see people from all walks of life and never feel superior to anyone...because I'm not. We make our own choices in life and the consequences of such decisions can sometimes have negative results...ahem, I can relate to that for sure! But, I don't understand how some feel they have the right to treat other people the way they do at times. At the same time, I don't have to understand. BUT, I can make choices for myself and remove myself from any threats to my "bubble"...lol...that reminds me of John Travolta as that boy in the bubble. I have someone who is really wanting to pop my bubble, and I am trying to understand the reasoning behind certain behaviors. In this particular case, it is affecting me in a very negative way and doesn't seem to taper off. So, I am trying to understand the reasoning behind this madness but sometimes it is SO hard! So, I could really use some "cyber advice" because I am feeling hatred and anger and that is just too much power to give to someone else. I don't think I want them to have it anymore so will update along the way. I am also recognizing more and more that I can't help everyone and that there is nothing that I can do for someone that they can't do for themselves. I am understanding why the people who really love me have been there and let me know that they are there but have chosen to distance themselves from me at times because it wasn't adding joy to their lives...it was creating unnecessary negativity. I have been close to this place before and have slipped...on more than one occasion and forget to take care of me...but I feel really strong and am so ready and have so many reasons to turn things around and get to it! I am realizing just lately that I know what I want and am realizing that hell yeah, I deserve it! I have lost that confidence along the way and am trying to keep telling myself that I deserve to be happy and to get what I want in life...as long as it doesn't negatively affect anyone else. I find myself experiencing some "feelings" that I thought were long gone...but apparently not! ;)
I received a message today from a guy in Cincinnati that just wanted to let me know that he enjoys my blog and thinks that I am a nice person and very beautiful...was so sweet. I get these emails regularly and am always flattered but have to wonder why so many people take the time to read my words, which is a great outlet for me. I already replied but want to thank Patrick again and let you know that YOU put a smile on my face tonight...and I needed one.
So, on a less serious note, Chelsea Lately is on and I have found myself LOVING her...anyone else a fan? She's a bitch sometimes but so funny! Yes, I am easily amused. ;)
Have a great Friday!
Sarah
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