So, if you didn't notice, my site was paused for a couple of days. I've been rethinking my choices in life with this industry in which I work, in the people with whom I have trusted so much, in the place I am right now in this life and whether it is desirable, and last but not least, where do I go now? So, I am going to change a lot for now and will hopefully gain some insight soon in deciding what to do next and/or I may just disappear completely into retirement and/or go UTR for awhile. I have placed so much trust in ALL of the wrong people and then find myself extremely vulnerable at their very hands on the slightest whim. I can no longer allow this to happen as I simply cannot take it anymore. They make these rash choices and do these drastic "things" to harm me, and it can't be taken back. Yes, they later regret it...yes, they have their excuses for doing so...yes, they want to help me now...but NO, it is too much and too late, and the damage is done. It also affects others at times who maybe DO or DID care about me...it scares them away...which is the intent of the person(s) doing the harm in the first place. So, THEY WIN! I GIVE UP...now what? Where do I go? What is my next move? How can I safely take care of myself...or can I?
Yes, this is a "serious" blog but felt the need to explain where I am to those who have been concerned, who have tried to contact me, who did try to visit me and had no idea as to what happened, etc. I hope this explains things to you...or somewhat.
Sarah
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